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I am slowly gaining more emotional control.  I was not aware that I had so many subconscious obstacles getting in my way of success.  It is clear to me that I still have a long way to go.  Fortunately, I know that I am in much better ‘condition’.  A lot has been happening due to the holidays.  Will have to update more another time.

As much as I want to build my business, I know I have to focus more on developing the right mindset.  I’ve said it over and over again, but it’s becoming so clear to me.  My emotions are still an obstacle, though I’m definitely making progress.  To be honest, I’m not so interested in this business as I am with my personal development.  Even now it feels like there’s something in me saying to get my priorities straight.

A lot of things have been on my mind lately, and I am struggling to focus as a result.  I will not give up on my business, but for the time being, it’s necessary for me to change my emotions rather than just talking about it.

I hate to admit this:  I am CONSTANTLY distracted, and I take full responsibility for it.  In hindsight, there is a part of me that wants that distraction.  In many ways, it’s like I’m warring against myself (i.e. “You are your worst enemy).  I’ve learned some fascinating spiritual insights of the past few days, but my business is not making progress.  Sometimes, I’m excited about my business, other times, I don’t want to move at all.

Granted, I was busy with my girlfriend and such, but I’ve done very little yet again.  Alright, it’s time for me to let go of beating myself up.

I know what I must do:  Keep clearing my emotional obstacles out of my life.  Once  these things are taken care of, doing the actual steps will be seemingly effortless for me.  I know I can do all the steps necessary right now, but I seriously don’t feel comfortable doing them.  This nagging feeling is a real pain.

Christmas has now come and gone, and I’ve relearned something quite valuable over the past few days:

I am not my emotions, nor my thoughts.  I just spoke with my mom and she told me how she deals with negative emotions.  She basically stays aware of them until they are gone, and this clearly involves a lot of patience. 

Also, as much as I feel a ‘need’ to daily update my blog (which simply is not possible due to all sorts of interruptions), I realize that my motive was to show others how I went about making a tremendous sum of money.  That obviously hasn’t happened, but the lessons I’ve learned are far more valuable:  My emotions (and therefore my beliefs) are at the core of my success (or lack thereof).

I see a direct connection between the amount of money I have made thus far, and the amount of emotional stability I have.  My emotions have certainly gotten better, but I clearly have much more cleansing to do.  I’ve got all sorts of subtle attachments and aversions towards my business.  As much as I want to move forward, I’ve got a lot of emotional obstacles I must clear.  But then there is this paradox:  I often do not take the necessary steps towards clearing them on my own, simply because I don’t want to face them!  So I do want to move forward, yet I also don’t.

So I have a choice:  Will I keep observing my emotions (and thereby release them)?  Or will I simply continue to let them control my life?

It is incredibly tempting to go with the latter.  I find it extremely difficult to clear my emotions, but this is precisely where my growth takes place.

That is not to say I haven’t taken steps to build my business, but it’s like I’m walking at a snails pace, rather than running like a cheetah.  I’m still moving, but it’s much slower than I know I can go.

A friend of mine helped me get back on track via hypnosis.  My emotions are easier to manage and now I feel like I can actually move forward.  Unfortunately, my time is a bit limited today, so this is only a short update.  I will have to get back to this another time.

Edit - I think I am doing much better now.  So far, things are looking good, and I can think straight again.  Working on my business doesn’t seem all that difficult as before.  Obstacles still remain, but they no longer appear impossible (for now at least).  I’m working on marketing via facebook, and I plan to dig my hands into Twitter.

One of the things I’ve also come to re-realize is the importance of Attraction marketing.  The idea is that people come to you, rather than you hunting people down to buy your product.  It presupposes confidence on the side of the marketer.  I’ve known about this for quite some time, but I didn’t fully understand it until recently.  Nobody likes to be sold to, and people don’t join businesses, they join other people.  That’s the essence of network marketing, and I finally get it!